I cannot believe Ashley is 3 weeks old today! I wish I could hit a pause button, and just freeze this time for a little while. I am loving every moment of it!Some people have said how the first few weeks are a blur, and can be really rough...but I have been blessed to feel really good from the very start--I recuperated very well from delivery, Ashley is a good sleeper so I'm not sleep deprived, and she is just such a sweet baby. So I have been able to take in every moment and savor each one. I know how precious these moments are. There are times when I am feeding her, or when she is resting on my shoulder that I will just sit and stare at her.
People had also shared experiences and warned me about different emotions that may come up in the beginning. I did have some overwhelming feelings, but they were of such intense love. I remember the day we brought her home from the hospital. She and I were alone in her room, and I was rocking her in her glider and listening to lullabies as I fed her. Here I was staring at her sweet face and into her eyes, and the song was singing: "I love your wiggles and I love your giggles, I love your sweet little sighs. I love your nose and your feet and your toes, I love your bright little eyes. When you will leave me, how it will grieve me, I know how the years will fly by...." and on that note I just teared right up. It just hit me at that moment how immensely I loved this little girl. That same day, Matt and I were laying in bed, and I started crying to him, just telling him how I just love her so much already, it was overwhelming. I also told him how it made me love him so much more too--for giving me the best gift that anyone could ever give me, and also from seeing him with Ashley. He is such a great dad already, so loving and caring. He never had experience with newborns, and he just picked right up on it. I just feel so happy and blessed to have such a great husband and such a good dad for my little girl. He has exceeded my hopes and expectations, as I wanted nothing more than to give my child a loving dad.
Here are some pictures from the past 3 weeks...
